POEMS

I'll add as life goes

Summer was spent in a daze

Trying to forget the things you said to me

In between the liquor and the moonlight

I pretended not to care

Though I was startled every time

I heard you call my name

Summer was spent far from your gaze

Almost amazed at how much freedom loneliness gave away

I heard your knock at dawn

But as I looked out the window

With the sun still too timid to come through

I decided to part ways with the notion

That our conversations were anything more than your loneliness

Attempting to reach out

To mine

Care for a drink?

It’s only a sip or two

While you’re at it spill all the secrets

You’ve been hiding so closely to your heart

Tell me what I do not want to hear

Then brush it over like it never happened

Maybe it would be best if we hadn’t met

But now it’s too late for those thoughts

Stay for dinner won’t you?

Let me feed the beast

Poke the bear that doesn’t care to be bothered

I wish you had known me better

Do you want to stay?

Perhaps I should tel you to go

Close the door and lock it

But something about you intrigued me

The way your eyes scan the strange room

And wonder if you’ve been here before

I offer a quick smile

A nod

You leave

My questions linger in the back of my throat

But this time I make an effort

To swallow

skin that stretches

contorts

and deflates

skin that touches

smells

and tastes

muscles that breathe

contract

and love

muscles that stiff

contradict

and come off

bones that break

shiver

and ache

for this body is so wonderful

and so fragile and gentle

wanting to feel it all

but too much I tremble

I can’t stand

with legs

that don’t bend

so I sit alone

waiting

to gain back my throne

in this mind that deflates

smells

and tastes

that loves

contradicts

and breaks

this body that aches

in agony to be faced

but before I can say

my words weight

and all becomes just another insignificant day

as this body slowly decimates

For what is worth, in my immortal soul

Can I buy you peace or should I trade you war

Things that go through my head as a reminder of my anger

Can I pass without a Drachma

Or should I offer something else

In this hell of world Fire seems like nothing

In this heaven of dreams

Flying away seems impossible

Can I stay? Or would it be too hard to look me in the eyes?

Should I stay inside this very home that ignited the flames of my anger

With this paving your head

I’ll leave you at that

Is it peace or war

Is it me or more